Why.....

I can never really understand those moments. When i want to tell you something which will comfort you, soothe you, and all you do is turn away, with a caustic remark or an acidic rejoinder.
Then you remind me how i bore you, ceaselessly keep telling you things that you think are utterly useless. Then you remind me how I keep getting you irritated and how you need time alone - just to be with yourself, cool off that anger of yours.

But how is it that just some days ago, you were so happy talking to me...listening to me and now you just answer in monosyllables, as if you are hoping the conversation would end as soon as possible.

Maybe I am old fashioned. Maybe i dont understand what you need sometimes. Maybe I am a bit too emotional. Or maybe, i am really irritating.

Maybe....
But what is an absolute certainty, is that you wont get another person who will love you as dearly, as completely as i will. Yes i do overdo it sometimes, but i dont do it conciously. Its just that i dont want you to have any problem; i dont want you to undergo any physical pain or suffering when i am not there. With you.

Yes i do wish that i protect you like a baby. Keep you safe and warm. I know thats not too pragmatic, but thats how it is.

Thats how it will be.

Period.

Life

Its funny how some things which you wish would not come true, finally do come true.
Its funny how you realise that everyone is human after all, that the idea one has of persons, situations, circumstances is so momentary. Like a drop of water, it just dries up before you know it. But the cool sensation remains afterwards.
Life has to move on....
I guess there is no use writing much about what i am feeling right now since it really is serving no purpose.
The only thing that is keeping my brain cells from falling to sleep is this - how life teaches you slowly but surely, that in the end, what matters is the love between two people.

Everything else is secondary.

Oh and one more thing - was thinking about this the other day.
That in the end all of us are losers.
L O S E R S
seems pathetic, pessimistic doesnt it ?
well it is. we die. we go back to the elements. and in doing that we lose everything we strive to gain in this life.

How ironic.
Life is really...